The other night around eleven, I was quaffing bubbly and sharing bread pudding at the Fat Radish with my friend Maya, executive director of Girls Write Now, and we were talking about life, mostly mine, as I resigned as chair of the board of directors last year so that I might have one. I was musing on the future by way of the recent past and she kept saying, but what do you want to do? I don't want to do anything, I replied with a sigh. I'm tired. I've been working as hard as I can for as long as I can remember. She insisted that I would need to find some satisfaction from work, to do something. I demurred. I've spent enough summers hanging out with zen monks to know that doing nothing could keep you fully occupied for a lifetime or two. Just now, as I came across yet another black tie gala I wish I could afford, not to mention the free evening, I realized that's exactly what I would do, if money were no object and my time were my own: I'd go to balls. All of 'em.