I wasn't planning on writing again, until I got a note from one of my nearest and dearest in New York, Madame X, requesting more dispatches. I had written her last night, a few lines about various topics and was stunned not to have a reply this morning, but as it turns out she wrote later to say, ' I was thinking of you last night -- I must've conjured you up! -- because it was, of course, Preview Night at the Winter Antiques Show.' While she's gone all her life, the year I accompanied her was apparently particularly memorable; at one point we ran past antiquities and hid among some carpets, in stilettos, with toffee-sticky fingers.
It's my last night in London and I feel plainly bereft. I've been happier here than I remember being in years. It does have something to do with not being on the clock (even though I've done some work), although I would say it's something more, indefinable, a distinct difference from life in New York, where I often feel theatrically overdressed and underwhelmed, and bored out of my mind. That's why I work so much. Just to pass the time. Here everything is new and unknown and there are so many rules I am breaking that I hardly have time to learn them all before it's time to dress for another meal. And everything is suitably grand.
Last night I had dinner with friends, charming writers who have been together twenty-five years and one casual remark truly struck me: the quality that distinguishes love that lasts forever, versus infatuation... who knows what it is, or why? I loved that so much. There is so much mystery in life... another world beyond language, or even what we're capable of comprehending. And yet somehow, it works in the ways that it needs to, most of the time. For me, it illustrates the importance of deftly pulling back from the digital whorl and revelling in more truly human interaction.
Today I went on a stroll around Mayfair, up along the parks and over towards Marble Arch and across Grosvenor Square, genteel and refined, and then Marylebone High Street, where I did a little shopping at Apartment C, a locale 'about hanging out in your knickers, drinking gin out of a teacup, and reading the Last Tango in Paris out loud.' Ms. Lola is Beauty came by the club for lunch and we retired to the library, sipping tea and nibbling biscuits and giggling while whispering crucial observations by the fire.
Paris in the morning. But, first: tonight. If you need me, I'll probably be enjoying my pretty view of the former home of the Duke of Marlborough; with a bow, it all comes back to Consuelo.